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It’s about time i said something while i wasn’t totally flustered and over the top about a few things. The whole attitude across the world about the Japanese Earthquake to me is sort of frustrating and jarring.  I’m not just speaking out about the Japanese Popular Culture fans squeeing that someone is OK – that’s another issue i’ll deal with later in my post.  I’m more speaking out about how many people i’ve heard and seen complain that Japan had it coming, or “It’s ethnic cleansing” – racism doesn’t die does it?

We don’t run around going “So you’re jewish, does this mean i can hit you with a stick and kill you because you’re not white – or even if you’re white you’re jewish?” do we? … No on the whole humanity does not.  We’re becoming a race of people who separate how we feel about each other still by the color and culture of our people.  We spoke about this in my SOWK111 class on Friday; and how culture is a large part of identity but it doesn’t mean that we judge or pass predjudice on these people.

How are we supposed to live with each other when we complain that Obama isn’t taking care of our own country – so why should we help New Zealand OR Japan?

Christchurch by far pales in comparison to the 8.9 quake from Friday evening – however they totally are opening their hearts out to Japan – as it’s only been a couple weeks since their 6.3 rocked the CBD of Christchurch.  Several towns and places in Japan are wiped clean almost, the death toll admittedly far higher than Christchurch’s 166.  But its the population level that makes the number higher, and the tsunami that followed after the quake that caused widespread devestation.

Why is it that for the warcrimes people think they never paid for (and trust me they have!) that when the Nuclear Reactors are having troubles – people think we should let everyone just get radiation sickness, and die?  Why is it so many people that AREN’T of the World War 2 generation and are younger than 30 complaining that Japan is getting KARMA for what they’ve done?

What have they done since world war two?

They’ve practically been demilitarized, and they have certainly become a nation full of remorse and are more than embarrased for past crimes in war.  This isn’t fair that humanity is turning on one another in a time of need – yes i get it, we’re human we complain a lot and we tend to ignore the fact no matter if we’re christian or not we have morals.

Ie: You kinda do need to love your neighbors regardless of religion 😛

I don’t feel that Japan deserves this anymore than Christchurch deserved two earthquakes of larger value in the last couple years – especially because New Zealand’s technology is different, but our buildings are old and sometimes not able to withstand things like this.  Like the news said, the worst part of the quake was the Tsunami that followed – not the quake itself.  (I would assume much like Chile?)

Don’t get me wrong, there’s a lot more i can do than just bitch and moan about the situation to help japan – but that takes time.

Before i go into how i could shut up and start fundraising LOL – i’ll explain what i meant earlier in the post about Japanese Popular Culture taking a role in the earthquake.  We’re taking a small part of their culture for granted in this time, and while i’m sure many people are not meaning harm by this – it does come across as slightly hmm.. self centered and frustrating.  I myself am at fault for already frustrating people whom i stood side by side virtually on the plains of Visual Asian Social Media (as an educated term i’ll make up since i’m not talking like i’m 17 years old in a teenage angst diary); people i could’ve dealt with better.

But this whole thing of constructing lists and passing them around – admirable to say one part, but the mass hysteria people generated is not necessarily a horrible thing, but an embarrassing thing.  The lists and the media hysteria caused by so many people updating about it in a SOCIAL MEDIA sense, rather than a news-media “let’s keep the world informed” sense… seemed to me like the wrong spin.

Now i’m going to Apologize publically – there are things i’ve done in a time of need for Oshare Curry when i owned it – so when i was out of order about La Carmina’s posts; i probably commented something i shouldn’t have.  My largest worry was that people who are not familiar with japanese culture, and are merely in it for the cosplay or even just anime or jrock – weren’t going to take it the right way.  The jokes were cheesy, yes – but who can complain when me and my friend Ayla were being a bit lighthearted at some point just to eleviate the stress.

Even a few Japanese people we know, unaffected by the quake … “Disneyland has now become Disneysea… oops that was quite mean wasnt it?” – we all are doing our best to update and talk about it.  People who are in the business of social media such as La Carmina; actually have business to do with Japan – they’re in the business of teaching and showing entertainment from Japanese and Asian Popular culture overseas.  Animefood and Madhatter are the magazines similar; and they all have business to do with showing overseas what the scene is like.

So i personally apologize, these lists and these blogs i’ve seen – they’re just people doing their thing.

I got over flustered after spending all day hawking the news, twitter and facebook – it’s just jarring to the mind to an already over familiar with the computer person. I ended up a royal asshole by the end of the night – and my family quite frankly could have dealt without it :).

As for fundraising?

I don’t know yet- i’m not going to do something like that on my own, i used to co run a club back last year and well————frankly? I don’t want to make the same mistakes, our class group on facebook Otago Daigaku no Nihongo had a comment from a mutual friend and classmate to raise ideas on fundraising.

I can’t say much, but i’ve downloaded a crapload of Zazzle templates – and may work my ass off to do a few things from there and resell them for the fundraiser.  I won’t confirm on it, because it’ll be a class group effort,  and not just “class” as it’s a group full of friends and colleagues and classmates, as well as 100 and 300 level students from Otago, and exchange students.

Maybe my mom’s youth group at Coastal Unity may do something as well- like they did for Christchurch.

For now?

My hopes and prayers and well wishes DO go out to people affected by these natural disasters, and until our class group makes a decision on fundraising?  I may do a side donation, but my funds are semi tied up in bills at the moment 🙂


So i now count two more hours until my mother is able to take me home (cause the use in leaving now is moot, cause i can get a free ride home from the arts building.) – But the wait means i should study, not be on here or twitter.

So for now i say, “My dilligence is now waning, and i am refusing to do as i should.”

Now today i realize that on the right hand side i’ve put my twitter in a module/widget. LOL – That means it’s out of the box, i’m a totally weird person, really – seriously.

However i disclaim that usually i’m retweeting, and being my usual retarded self. (Note, i’m ALLOWED TO USE THE WORD RETARD! Because i am not neuro atypical LOL!) I’m posting things about the pee movies, poo movies and just in general being immature.

That bit scared me when i logged in today and realized i was trying to show a bit more maturity and such with this. Eh, who cares – i’m not out to please anyone with this anyways. I’ll just have to refrain from being too overly offensive – but the tweets from Lord Voldemort are still hilairous. (For your information, it’s a parody account on twitter of Lord Voldemort.)

Anyways, i’ll stop tangenting about crap and get to my short point.

I’ve hit the mark where normally pronounciations DO NOT BUG ME – however i have a british lecturer who does my computer labs, and he’s a great guy. But as usual “pasta” and “taco” get mished and mashed in to the Queens version of it … or at least the british vernacular of it.

Not that it’s a huge big deal, but to me in a language perspective if it is a FOREIGN word – you pronounce it in it’s original way. Not the way Tony Blair does, not the way John Key does – and CERTAINLEY NOT THE WAY GEORGE BUSH DOES :P. So if it’s spanish/mexican – continue with that, yea ok you’ll get a bit of vernacular with Americans especially – we dont shorten the o’s on a lot of words so when i say “taco” or “neko” i get yelled at by my friends who are taking linguistics.

Stubborn ousama… stubborn stubborn ousama! LOL.

I have to say tho – kiwi’s on the whole, new zealanders only grate me a tiny bit now on pronounciation LOL. “Shedule” and a couple other words. I’ll never spell “practice” their way xD NEVAR!

It’s just weird though how grammar, and english and language in general make their way in to two different university things. One would be that i was in my Social Work class today- and we learned that the term “wee tart” (which i heard as something different but i’ll explain later lol) was offensive in the US and in the North Island of the New Zealand area. It’s amazing how you tie in language and culture in context of different lectures.

And yes, i heard “retard” instead of “wee tart” – aka “sofa king wee todd did” – and yes, i’ve managed to place seriously offensive terms inside of a seemingly mature document.


Don’t get me started 😀 i have an insult book at home, and sadly.. yes… a fart book. >.>

Right now i’m too exhausted to deal with anyone LOL – i need to go out and munch on my terribly unhealthy afternoon snack since they didnt have anything healthy that was cheap at the shop in the link. >_> <_< MEH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Anyways, yea 😛




I've drastically cut down how much second life i'm using too – this is sort of an interesting progress into becoming a normal person. aaaaahhhhgghh!!! WTF MY IPOD IS PLAYING THE SAILOR MOON SOUNDTRACK!!!!!!

…this is sad cause the track i'm listening to sounds like Ain't afraid to die with frosted ambience at the first bit! LOL!!! That'd be hilarious to mash up. *SNORT*

I could fall asleep to this, and to the other song i just mentioned……..

muffin here i come!!!

Ah i think i’m gonna be a bit more CLEAN in how i express my feelings here rather than how i did over at my deviant art account – cause well that’s my … weirdo place to hang out *glares at dev art for being such a weirdo place to hang*.  It’s quite a hard thing to speak about when nobody i am personally related to by blood is effected, but when the families that are affected are related by marriage through your stepfather – and they’ve done nothing LESS than treat you as one of their own….

You kinda have to speak about it.

Being that i have ADHD it does mean that i process emotion way differently, so basically my first few words of “Holy Shit” and “…omfg” and “It’ll be…ok?” are about all i’ve been able to really say.  Needless to say my insides have been curled up, and messed up since we found out about it on tuesday.

We’re still waiting on official information or response from two members of the family – as i haven’t heard much other than Graeme adding me back on facebook.  But since this isn’t just me, it’s a whole load of people – it’s been quite hard to process – really really hard. David and Joy are alright, and so are the rest of the family up there; my friend Ayla who lives with us was in tears at one point from releif and panic when her friend up there couldnt find her mom – lucky for her and her friend they did.  But worse off after this, i just heard her grandfather passed away this morning.  Even if there was record of the family not getting along with him, he’s still family and i swear that is not an easy thing to deal with.

Death in itself is a pain to deal with if it’s family – when that notice comes out at about 6PM our time here in new zealand and people find out it’s their family – it’s going to be hell.  People would’ve just spoken to these people within a day of the quake – it’s not just the thought of death or that it’s the quake that makes it hard.  It’s the regret that we didn’t do something we should have with said loved one or family member – i know this feeling.

My Grandmother passed away last september, she just turned 90- it was really hard for me to process because as close as i was to her, we went through mental and verbal abuse from her.  As proud of her, and as much as i loved her not JUST as a human being, but as her granddaughter – there were many times i said things behind the curtain i should never have even thought.   As many times as my mother has had near death issues with health – the last time she was in for cellulitis (Mind you not death defying) i was bawling my eyes out when we left to go home to eat dinner and watch tv.  I’m a sook , like my dog Jack – a big ass sook LOL.

When it comes to money? Death has a real problem when it’s a disaster, i’d got my student course related costs like tuesday morning, and i swear i couldn’t bear the thought of donating any less than my course related costs… But we all know as human beings we have to survive, and we have to live and learn…. xX;; but it’s the little things like that which have been eating at me since tuesday night. I’ve been TRYING to not be self depricating and throw my credit card at redcross and donate a hundred or two more – it wouldn’t be as selfless as people would have wanted to think it would be. It’d be me just plain getting in a tizzy and removing myself from the allowance of this money the government gladly gives me for books.

So i did donate, pawprints got a $3 text donation from me and Redcross got a 25$ donation from me.

However donations always come with some freaking scam – and always that the media reports these scams incorrectly.  As you will notice on my old domain, i’ve posted the Donate4CharityNZ scam information.  I am of course not the only one who’s reported this to TVNZ, STuff and the NZ Govt…. but frankly, i’m appalled at the media for never mentioning that Venturian media is a company that loses out from this, they aren’t a direct charity but work with direct charities on behalf and have a central website with offers on how to give and such to them.  They’re normally based in the UK, and Neil is the contact i was dealing with and he seems quite taken aback by the idiot who bothered to make this scam up.

Don’t you think that as a nation people would be up in arms by someone thinking up something like this? Nigerian bank scams aside, this guy actually said in his email to several people “In return for your help you’ll be paid out 10% of each donation received” aka, employed in a scam to gather money. But i would think that humanity is quite stupid somedays and there’s sadly a few that replied to the guy and may have fallen for it.

There’s just so much in life that’s left unanswered.

There’s just so much stupidity that we can’t fix – so much that at the end of the day if we’re still alive – we just have to unfortunately shrug most of it off.

This year when i’m off to my 2nd year at university, i’m going to attempt (no promises sadly as there’s always something in the way of my stopping my own distractions LOL) to be in more ability to put effort in to my classwork.  I dont have Japanese again til 2nd semester, but that’s because I failed JAPA132 last year.

I bought Nakama 1 pack – and am going to work with my Lecturer off and on to prepare for that part of the year.

I’m also studying Social work papers as a minor – Human Services, so i’ll have more of a career direction – but someone told me something today..

so here’s my ADHD and why i’m returning to COMPLAINING ABOUT NZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“We don’t really study for a career, we just study to study.”

…………….no wonder people aren’t getting jobs with their degrees! 😀 🙂

Also, to end my ranting and raving and stuff – i’m going to leave my lack of readers and friends and family with this i found on Harmony’s wall on facebook:

Roses are red the chalice is blue,
The cathedral has fallen many buildings have too,
You can rattle our bones, you can rip streets apart,
But you will never defeat our red and black hearts,
For we are cantabrians new zealanders and together we know,
………………We stand tall together, through anything we regrow.

Add to your wall to remember those who have fallen and to remind us all to stand tall. 22/02/2011

I’m not a cantabrian shut up i’m american, i live in dunedin – we are uhm just as caring THANK YOU XD.

Here’s the general nz one i’ve redone 😀

Roses are red the sky is quite blue,
The cathedral has fallen many buildings have too,
You can rattle our bones, you can rip streets apart,
But you will never defeat our white and black hearts,
For we are New Zealanders and together we know,
………………We stand tall together, through anything we regrow.

Add to your wall to remember those who have fallen and to remind us all to stand tall. 22/02/2011


And good luck to all of you on finding your loved ones.

Posting oO

I may not be posting much here anymore as i have to uhm >.> deal with posting for slice of kiwi instead 😀

and i’m not big on having personal blogs.
they get in the way ><

I so lied.

Yea I didn’t’ really want a blog- but this is attached to my windows live, it means I’m free .. I don’t have to worry about file space, and how much it costs. I don’t have to worry about asking for people to sponsor my stuff cause I’m broke.

….not, a worry anymore Open-mouthed smile.

Yea, totally.

So, now my frustration is trying to seriously combat the issue of how much apathy I have towards blogging.  You see, I’m used to livejournal, then again – that’s where people write unethical things and slander people behind a friends only post! (Trust me, we’ve all done it once.)  And with that, usually I’m used to all the trappings of that, and rpgs etc-

Well I’m learning to grow up, that doesn’t mean playing with the big kids … that means growing up and learning to play on my own SAEFLY.  Yes, that’s right, Oshare Curry is gone (Except for the SL hangout) – and I’m free to do as I please.

My reputation? I don’t care anymore.

Ok I … sort of do, I do however say that as I run with my mother a SL Housing design business and I don’t need people knowing my day to day toilet details. (As some people totally would post.)

However, I will oblige to post my complaints of randomness on here – like “WTF IS A SEX TOILET” …. and “WTF. MY INVENTORY IS A MESS!” or “Zomg. PUPPY! *huggles jack* I WUV HIM!” or … “AYLA SAYS HI” … or in her case when she comes back from Christchurch, “OHAI!~”

…..yes, that and I will be posting interesting knowledge and findings relevant towards my study.  >_> I wonder if I can import my crap from my other wordpress….. the one I neglected to remove from my hosting xD.

(Yes my assignment one .. that one…. over there!)


Have a pictoor.


I play with photoshop, I play with second life……. and no the next answer is not “I play with myself” GET YOUR MIND OUT OF THE GUTTER AND PAY ATTENTION! Smile


….if playing with myself inlcudes a coffee and civilization four, totally clothed and beating the crap out of russia, then we’re fine.




Puffy x Smuffy
I wanted to include the humor in JPop as well – SMAP being one of the few weirdest things i’ve seen.  Also in this post you will see “Shingo Mama no Oha Rock” – Something that is educational yet very emotionally disturbing on so many levels (yet safe for kids! and i’m not joking!)

Shingo Katori in recent years has also become a fairly well respected actor; being in NHK’s 43rd Taiga Drama “NHK! SHINSENGUMI” as ISAMI KONDOU.

I’ve seen this several times; it’s adorably cute but yet very scaring – don’t say i didnt warn you; a buff masculine guy in pretty pink polka dots is kinda disturbing.  Can’t say he doesn’t have entertainment value in his talent; otherwise he wouldnt still have a job!

Additions To the "Fray"

Well; i noticed i left this seriously open ended last night without some proof on what JPOP is – as this project isn’t exactly an ending factor as of September 21st.  So with the conclusion that Japanese ROCK isn’t imitative by averaging out what i know and what i’ve researched, i’ve decided to do a few quick reviews and examples of Japanese Pop outside of what i’ve shown in previous posts.

I will note that these are things i picked up on Sept 20th 2010, from Youtube – and have no research to back up my reviews on these.  They are pure “opinion” and i can assure you, that from this end of the foray – that I have never heard most of these bands before today.

(However; i will reference where i’ve received these and note that in the final bibliography!)

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The comparison of Marc Bolan and Hideto Matsumoto in requirement to the essay topic

A  post tailing the end of my notes for an essay i’m not sure i have enough mental energy to write! ONWARD JROCK SOLI- I mean Researchers.  (Yes, researchers… that’s a real professional term there Jill, lol – tell em’ all you’re just researching!)  My knowledge personally of T-REX and Marc Bolan is only that through realization that hide did NOT make the song 20th century boy, and that it was over 20 years old and I had no clue about my music, and that i should bite my tounge until the day i realize what exactly i’m talking about.

Well Mr Feld; here’s to you for influencing Hideto Matsumoto – even if some people think i’m totally blatantly wrong and insane.  That’s what research is! (Or at least thats what my excuse is). Between the fashion of the vinyl green snake looking outfits – and the same suit like outifts that Marc Bolan graced in an earlier referenced video, and the similarities in some of hide’s earlier work; there’s some sort of influence surley?

In thinking about that; i’m starting to change my mind – indeed, what actually is influence, because hide never really showed “influence” from anything per se.  That cyberpunk spider had his own style, pink punk red crawling on the backs of every spider with guitar (>_> “INSIDE THE PERVERT MOUND” type quote there!). Ok fandom aside; i’m seirously reconsidering that whole comparison issue.

It’s an open ended anomaly – how do you classify influence, and keywords and compartments on things that are defying the common knowledge of western music?  While there is direct classification of influence from KISS; in interviews etc – how can you go about classifying the truth when the guy isn’t here to ask?

And in today’s world would you go up to Ozzy Osbourne and ask him if he was influenced by the beatles?

Examples of Japanese Rock and Bands within the “Visual Kei” Sphere in question to The Glam Influence

Ok this is a pure media post – or mostly pure media, i’ll be posting examples of bands in question to the Glam Rock, Metal and Alternative Scenes that many books i’ve looked through and read through have explained. After each one i’ll make a quick explanation of what i mean, and so on and so forth.

(Aka: I’m getting extreeeeeeme exhaustion from working on this almost non stop over the weekend. It’s a student thing, only my lecturers would understand – We all make sure we do these at the last minute so the day they’re do we’re groggily walking in to turn it in and because of that we’re so slow that we have snail like reflexes… and only get it in 10 seconds before the time’s up.)

Onward Jrock Researchers! TO THE MEDIA!

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Before i expound largley onto the fandom section of the subject; i want to show the public versions of hide’s funeral and report.  It’s imperitave that i show this, as one of my sources on Hideto Matsumoto was indeed an article in AsiaWeek about his passing.  (And no, i am not referencing five hide plushies just to prove my own fandom :P)


X-Japan members performing “FOREVER LOVE” at hide’s funeral.

Yoshiki Hayashi speaking on Live Television.

WITHOUT YOU (Played at a recent HIDE MEMORIAL concert in Japan.)

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