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It’s about time i said something while i wasn’t totally flustered and over the top about a few things. The whole attitude across the world about the Japanese Earthquake to me is sort of frustrating and jarring.  I’m not just speaking out about the Japanese Popular Culture fans squeeing that someone is OK – that’s another issue i’ll deal with later in my post.  I’m more speaking out about how many people i’ve heard and seen complain that Japan had it coming, or “It’s ethnic cleansing” – racism doesn’t die does it?

We don’t run around going “So you’re jewish, does this mean i can hit you with a stick and kill you because you’re not white – or even if you’re white you’re jewish?” do we? … No on the whole humanity does not.  We’re becoming a race of people who separate how we feel about each other still by the color and culture of our people.  We spoke about this in my SOWK111 class on Friday; and how culture is a large part of identity but it doesn’t mean that we judge or pass predjudice on these people.

How are we supposed to live with each other when we complain that Obama isn’t taking care of our own country – so why should we help New Zealand OR Japan?

Christchurch by far pales in comparison to the 8.9 quake from Friday evening – however they totally are opening their hearts out to Japan – as it’s only been a couple weeks since their 6.3 rocked the CBD of Christchurch.  Several towns and places in Japan are wiped clean almost, the death toll admittedly far higher than Christchurch’s 166.  But its the population level that makes the number higher, and the tsunami that followed after the quake that caused widespread devestation.

Why is it that for the warcrimes people think they never paid for (and trust me they have!) that when the Nuclear Reactors are having troubles – people think we should let everyone just get radiation sickness, and die?  Why is it so many people that AREN’T of the World War 2 generation and are younger than 30 complaining that Japan is getting KARMA for what they’ve done?

What have they done since world war two?

They’ve practically been demilitarized, and they have certainly become a nation full of remorse and are more than embarrased for past crimes in war.  This isn’t fair that humanity is turning on one another in a time of need – yes i get it, we’re human we complain a lot and we tend to ignore the fact no matter if we’re christian or not we have morals.

Ie: You kinda do need to love your neighbors regardless of religion 😛

I don’t feel that Japan deserves this anymore than Christchurch deserved two earthquakes of larger value in the last couple years – especially because New Zealand’s technology is different, but our buildings are old and sometimes not able to withstand things like this.  Like the news said, the worst part of the quake was the Tsunami that followed – not the quake itself.  (I would assume much like Chile?)

Don’t get me wrong, there’s a lot more i can do than just bitch and moan about the situation to help japan – but that takes time.

Before i go into how i could shut up and start fundraising LOL – i’ll explain what i meant earlier in the post about Japanese Popular Culture taking a role in the earthquake.  We’re taking a small part of their culture for granted in this time, and while i’m sure many people are not meaning harm by this – it does come across as slightly hmm.. self centered and frustrating.  I myself am at fault for already frustrating people whom i stood side by side virtually on the plains of Visual Asian Social Media (as an educated term i’ll make up since i’m not talking like i’m 17 years old in a teenage angst diary); people i could’ve dealt with better.

But this whole thing of constructing lists and passing them around – admirable to say one part, but the mass hysteria people generated is not necessarily a horrible thing, but an embarrassing thing.  The lists and the media hysteria caused by so many people updating about it in a SOCIAL MEDIA sense, rather than a news-media “let’s keep the world informed” sense… seemed to me like the wrong spin.

Now i’m going to Apologize publically – there are things i’ve done in a time of need for Oshare Curry when i owned it – so when i was out of order about La Carmina’s posts; i probably commented something i shouldn’t have.  My largest worry was that people who are not familiar with japanese culture, and are merely in it for the cosplay or even just anime or jrock – weren’t going to take it the right way.  The jokes were cheesy, yes – but who can complain when me and my friend Ayla were being a bit lighthearted at some point just to eleviate the stress.

Even a few Japanese people we know, unaffected by the quake … “Disneyland has now become Disneysea… oops that was quite mean wasnt it?” – we all are doing our best to update and talk about it.  People who are in the business of social media such as La Carmina; actually have business to do with Japan – they’re in the business of teaching and showing entertainment from Japanese and Asian Popular culture overseas.  Animefood and Madhatter are the magazines similar; and they all have business to do with showing overseas what the scene is like.

So i personally apologize, these lists and these blogs i’ve seen – they’re just people doing their thing.

I got over flustered after spending all day hawking the news, twitter and facebook – it’s just jarring to the mind to an already over familiar with the computer person. I ended up a royal asshole by the end of the night – and my family quite frankly could have dealt without it :).

As for fundraising?

I don’t know yet- i’m not going to do something like that on my own, i used to co run a club back last year and well————frankly? I don’t want to make the same mistakes, our class group on facebook Otago Daigaku no Nihongo had a comment from a mutual friend and classmate to raise ideas on fundraising.

I can’t say much, but i’ve downloaded a crapload of Zazzle templates – and may work my ass off to do a few things from there and resell them for the fundraiser.  I won’t confirm on it, because it’ll be a class group effort,  and not just “class” as it’s a group full of friends and colleagues and classmates, as well as 100 and 300 level students from Otago, and exchange students.

Maybe my mom’s youth group at Coastal Unity may do something as well- like they did for Christchurch.

For now?

My hopes and prayers and well wishes DO go out to people affected by these natural disasters, and until our class group makes a decision on fundraising?  I may do a side donation, but my funds are semi tied up in bills at the moment 🙂


Ah i think i’m gonna be a bit more CLEAN in how i express my feelings here rather than how i did over at my deviant art account – cause well that’s my … weirdo place to hang out *glares at dev art for being such a weirdo place to hang*.  It’s quite a hard thing to speak about when nobody i am personally related to by blood is effected, but when the families that are affected are related by marriage through your stepfather – and they’ve done nothing LESS than treat you as one of their own….

You kinda have to speak about it.

Being that i have ADHD it does mean that i process emotion way differently, so basically my first few words of “Holy Shit” and “…omfg” and “It’ll be…ok?” are about all i’ve been able to really say.  Needless to say my insides have been curled up, and messed up since we found out about it on tuesday.

We’re still waiting on official information or response from two members of the family – as i haven’t heard much other than Graeme adding me back on facebook.  But since this isn’t just me, it’s a whole load of people – it’s been quite hard to process – really really hard. David and Joy are alright, and so are the rest of the family up there; my friend Ayla who lives with us was in tears at one point from releif and panic when her friend up there couldnt find her mom – lucky for her and her friend they did.  But worse off after this, i just heard her grandfather passed away this morning.  Even if there was record of the family not getting along with him, he’s still family and i swear that is not an easy thing to deal with.

Death in itself is a pain to deal with if it’s family – when that notice comes out at about 6PM our time here in new zealand and people find out it’s their family – it’s going to be hell.  People would’ve just spoken to these people within a day of the quake – it’s not just the thought of death or that it’s the quake that makes it hard.  It’s the regret that we didn’t do something we should have with said loved one or family member – i know this feeling.

My Grandmother passed away last september, she just turned 90- it was really hard for me to process because as close as i was to her, we went through mental and verbal abuse from her.  As proud of her, and as much as i loved her not JUST as a human being, but as her granddaughter – there were many times i said things behind the curtain i should never have even thought.   As many times as my mother has had near death issues with health – the last time she was in for cellulitis (Mind you not death defying) i was bawling my eyes out when we left to go home to eat dinner and watch tv.  I’m a sook , like my dog Jack – a big ass sook LOL.

When it comes to money? Death has a real problem when it’s a disaster, i’d got my student course related costs like tuesday morning, and i swear i couldn’t bear the thought of donating any less than my course related costs… But we all know as human beings we have to survive, and we have to live and learn…. xX;; but it’s the little things like that which have been eating at me since tuesday night. I’ve been TRYING to not be self depricating and throw my credit card at redcross and donate a hundred or two more – it wouldn’t be as selfless as people would have wanted to think it would be. It’d be me just plain getting in a tizzy and removing myself from the allowance of this money the government gladly gives me for books.

So i did donate, pawprints got a $3 text donation from me and Redcross got a 25$ donation from me.

However donations always come with some freaking scam – and always that the media reports these scams incorrectly.  As you will notice on my old domain, i’ve posted the Donate4CharityNZ scam information.  I am of course not the only one who’s reported this to TVNZ, STuff and the NZ Govt…. but frankly, i’m appalled at the media for never mentioning that Venturian media is a company that loses out from this, they aren’t a direct charity but work with direct charities on behalf and have a central website with offers on how to give and such to them.  They’re normally based in the UK, and Neil is the contact i was dealing with and he seems quite taken aback by the idiot who bothered to make this scam up.

Don’t you think that as a nation people would be up in arms by someone thinking up something like this? Nigerian bank scams aside, this guy actually said in his email to several people “In return for your help you’ll be paid out 10% of each donation received” aka, employed in a scam to gather money. But i would think that humanity is quite stupid somedays and there’s sadly a few that replied to the guy and may have fallen for it.

There’s just so much in life that’s left unanswered.

There’s just so much stupidity that we can’t fix – so much that at the end of the day if we’re still alive – we just have to unfortunately shrug most of it off.

This year when i’m off to my 2nd year at university, i’m going to attempt (no promises sadly as there’s always something in the way of my stopping my own distractions LOL) to be in more ability to put effort in to my classwork.  I dont have Japanese again til 2nd semester, but that’s because I failed JAPA132 last year.

I bought Nakama 1 pack – and am going to work with my Lecturer off and on to prepare for that part of the year.

I’m also studying Social work papers as a minor – Human Services, so i’ll have more of a career direction – but someone told me something today..

so here’s my ADHD and why i’m returning to COMPLAINING ABOUT NZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

“We don’t really study for a career, we just study to study.”

…………….no wonder people aren’t getting jobs with their degrees! 😀 🙂

Also, to end my ranting and raving and stuff – i’m going to leave my lack of readers and friends and family with this i found on Harmony’s wall on facebook:

Roses are red the chalice is blue,
The cathedral has fallen many buildings have too,
You can rattle our bones, you can rip streets apart,
But you will never defeat our red and black hearts,
For we are cantabrians new zealanders and together we know,
………………We stand tall together, through anything we regrow.

Add to your wall to remember those who have fallen and to remind us all to stand tall. 22/02/2011

I’m not a cantabrian shut up i’m american, i live in dunedin – we are uhm just as caring THANK YOU XD.

Here’s the general nz one i’ve redone 😀

Roses are red the sky is quite blue,
The cathedral has fallen many buildings have too,
You can rattle our bones, you can rip streets apart,
But you will never defeat our white and black hearts,
For we are New Zealanders and together we know,
………………We stand tall together, through anything we regrow.

Add to your wall to remember those who have fallen and to remind us all to stand tall. 22/02/2011


And good luck to all of you on finding your loved ones.